Bookstore Drama

I don't know if you know, but we run our church bookstore. It's fun to do, most of the time-however-Today-could've been better! It was one of those days where if a sign were in front of them, they still wouldn't see what they were looking for.
Then, you have the "after the door closes-it'll just take a minute-oh now i've changed my mind" people......go figure! I mean, I try to be patient, but it gets on my nerves. If you were in any other store, you would have the decency to realize that I have been here since before service. Oh well. It was just one of those days where you just bang your head on the counter (which i did) and say "God-can I start over?"! At which time God replys "My grace is sufficient"....and I say "I'm glad, because I need all i can get~!"

Thoughts of Today...

Bills and Cleaning- These are two things I could do without!!! But it's a fact of life! Oh, well. My God shall supply ALL my needs!
Today I've been doing the kids school laundry and paying bills-ugh! I don't mind the laundry-the bills on the other hand-could dissapear and I'd be quite happy! I think everyone probably feels that way

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Update on Potty training:
Jordy is doing ok. She did GREAT in school, but had a couple accidents at home. She does feel like a big girl! And I bought her some Princess and Minnie mouse panties to sweeten the deal-you know-incentive-to make her feel even bigger!! Let's hope it works!

Yucky Mornings..

These are my morning glories in the rain

Good morning...well...atleast its gonna have to be! Even though it is absolutely pouring and thundering here! Yuck! I'm glad I don't have to take the kiddos this morning :)!! It's hubbies job today!!! Yea!!!

Anywoo.....why do mornings with kids have to be so rough? I mean my "we absolutely cannot be late/I'm attempting to be the parent"-child wakes me up at 6:15.."MOM-were gonna be late!" Me, "What are you talking about? We don't have to wake up until 7!! Go back to bed and DON'T wake your brothers and sisters up!"


And so what do I hear 2 seconds later-"Good morning" (Jordy) "no-stop leave me alone"-T and "oooo...i'm still tired"-Pres.....So my resposnes was:


"Did I not just say not to wake them up?? Don't you dare wake up your baby sister!!" Oh well, so we all get up-not really wanting to and start our day. After everyone dresses, we eat our breakfast, brush our teeth, get their stuff together (with an occasional fight in between everything!) and head out the door by 7:45-we're lucky we only live 5 minutes from school! And the day begins!


I'm gonna go back to bed though after they leave-to atleast savor some quiet time!!!

Rain, Rain..

It's raining here. Not very hard, but it is. I love rain when I'm not in it! It's quiet here almost too quiet.

I'm realizing my babies are getting way too big-I cried yesterday night. I was getting in bed and almost becoming angry. "Why did I put her in so soon? She's still little bitty". What was I thinking?

I sat here yesterday just wanting her to come down from her nap and call for me "Mommy!"-but it didn't happen. I was so sad-still is. I mean it's nice with just Caitlyn being here, but Jordybug is getting to that age where she can have a full conversation and tell you about everything-ya know she's almost 3 and knows EVERYTHING!

My hubby told me I had to make up my mind-in school or not. That's so hard. She wants to be a big girl and I don't want her to grow up. Then he asks "You sound like you want more kids?"....I don't know. We have 5 and people think we're crazy already, especially family. I just love my kids. Every age is fun even when it has it's complications.

I don't know why the rain made me think like this-I just am sad and rain seems to make you sad.

It reminds me of when I was a kid-care free. My mom used to let me go out in the rain in a bathing suit, rain boots and an umbrella (don't know what for-i didn't use it) and just play in the rain-all day. Oh.....to be a kid again! Some days I wish I were-but just without the bad stuff!

Rain....Rain....

Photo By:Tim Heneghan

Can't I change my mind??

I say this because...I really wanted to cry this morning! My baby is only 2 1/2-she'll be 3 in a few weeks and seeing her go to K3 about killed me! She looked darling, though!

The boys did well, T, my oldest was really nervous-but he'll do great. The other boys were ready to go!

So, I am here alone with Caitlyn....and i don't know what to do~I mean, yes I could clean, do laundry...etc...but I'm taking a "Mommy day"! We'll see how that goes!

Frustrating days...School days

Today has been CRAZZZZZZZYYYYYYY!! And I'm saying this because it really has been!
We had a few last minute errands to run. So, first we got everyone school shoes, which is a task in itself! Then we went to one of my fav places-Target to get last minute lunch stuff. Then we met my hubby for lunch, then Sydney met us to spend the day.

Syd is my best friends daughter, she's kinda like my little sister (although she is a whole lot taller than me!). She started watching the kids when Preston was a baby -so 6 years ago-Wow! Even thinking about it is amazing! She's a sweety. And I'm sad and happy all at the same time thinkin about her. See, she's movin to Dallas,Texas. She is going for school at "Masters Commision". I'm excited for her because i know it is where God wants her, but it's sad when family leaves! That's what she is to us!! We love that girl some kinda terrible! Jordybug called her Nydney for the longest time!

So, after Syd came and went with us to the mall to find a "peter pan collared shirt"-see, I'm telling you the specifics because I searced the NATION-and i mean it- for that stupid shirt!!! I wanted a resonably priced one-which took forever. But I found it -at Sears-THANKS SEARS! And it was only $10.50. You know with 5 kiddos you gotta be!

She came and stayed with us for a little while, then she left and I became miserably sick-the worst headach ever!!! I got so sick I threw up-gross! I hate throwing up, but I felt a little better afterwards, except for the headache-I'm still dealing with that one. So, I drugged myself and I am a little loopy-but that's better than pain. But I had to deal with it to get all the school stuff together.




SCHOOL DAYS

Well, we labeled, packed, made lunches, put clothes together, and organized (which I'm totally not an organized person-i wish i was!) all our kiddos for school! My Jordybug had to have everything princess-down to her folder no less! My preteen, T is a skateboarder at heart, so of course we had to have a Vans shoes and everything black. J decided on everything blue-don't know why, but ok. Pres decided on yellow for most stuff and I can't believe the deal i got on shoes!! We stopped in to payless to "just check" what they had-everything was BOGO, so I got two pair of shoes for $12 bucks!!! I couldn't believe it-Praise God!
Anywoo, I'm sittin here really wondering if I should've put Jordybug in K3, but I know it was the right thing to do, I'm just a little sad. Sad knowing we won't be playing princess during the day or just having girly conversations. But atleast I know if I have the urge for a girly day I can pick her up and noon and it's just me and her! But it's still sad....

Ok...I gotta get some rest-gotta get up at 6am-SOOOOOOOO not my thing-I am not a mornin gal for sure!!!

I am.....

Nabbed this from http://cheaperthantherapyjen.blogspot.com/, who got it from Jenny, try it, you may like it!!
I am...
a strong woman....in my dreams
I think...about Jordybug going to school.
I know...
my God loves me.
I want... a bigger house and a new cell phone.
I have... the best family and friends.
I wish... for my children to have a long, healthy and happy life. (me too!)
I hate...
disloyalty.
I miss...being able to fit a size 5.
I fear...
change.
I feel... thoughtprovoking now
I hear... my husband watching a movie and Jordybug playing dolls
I smell... our lunch-chicken marsala.
I search... for?
I wonder... if this year is gonna get easier.
I regret... not always taking in the moment. (me too)
I love... chocolate
I care...
for my family.
I always... procrastinate.
I am not...organized
I believe...in a God who heals people, restores people, loves people
I dance... when noones looking
I sing...
because I love to
I don't always...
follow through the right way
I write... what I feel.
I win... for "best lookin kiddos" (i'm partial)
I lose... weight in my dreams.
I never... will jump out a plane
I listen... to HEAR and understand.
I can usually be found... on the computer.
I'm scared of... so many things.
I read...
rarely...unless it's my B.I.B.L.E
I forget...things on my grocery list consistently.
I just...realized I have to change the baby
I am happy about...blogging...it's refresing

Potty Training....in Progress?

Jordybug has been doing pretty good with potty training, although we've had several accidents! I hate when that happens. You have to clean up the total mess-gross! We've had a couple major ones where I think I'm gonna throw up if I have to pick up the mess after her. But we are getting there!

I have decided that we won't even try diapers/pullups anymore! It seems self-defeating! Although I can check off my major list-SHE SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT IN REAL PANTIES!!! Hallelujah!!! (yeah, I probably spelled it wrong-oh well)!

Today she did have an accident in her sunday school class, but they were so good about it! They cleaned her off and washed/dryed her panties-what a cool ministry we have~Praise God!

Sad days...Happy Days

I've been crying lately. My baby is too big for her bassinet. So I put up the toddler bed for Jordybug and then fixed the crib for Caitlyn. The first night I just cried like a baby. I didn't want to lay her in the other room.

You see, she's the last baby (atleast that's what I am saying to myself and everyone else) and I want her to stay little as long as possible! I know that won't happen. She's getting bigger everyday and I'm sad. Sad that she soon not want to nurse or to be held as long. But for now, I am holding her close and spoiling her a little more each day.

Anywoo...Just wanted to share my struggle with my darling baby growing too fast!

Selfish....my self discovery

I've been thinking. I've been selfish. I sit and complain about how rough my life is. But is it really? I've been blogging (I have a blogsite) and I look at other peoples blogs and sometimes I just lose it and tear up.
Wow..I am Blessed! Blessed with healthy kids, a home, God's love (my top), family and a church that is awesome. Some of these women have lost babies before they were born, lost babies hours after they are born, had babies and then learned they have cancer (but are believing God for healing) and they can't nurse-I can. And I am sitting here with a new baby and 4 other beautiful children.
I should be thanking God instead of complaining and becoming selfish. It's not about me-it's about HIM using Me for HIS glory. So if I have to deal with the little things-the ones I need to give to Him because He can take care of them because He says "my yolk is easy, my burden is light"...then I have to give it to HIM!
So, I must apologize for my whining and complaining (my venting too). No more excuses. I have been struggling, not because I should, but because I still wanted to take the role of leader..but He should be my leader. MY KING..MY SAVIOR..MY EVERYTHING.
You see, I forgot that. In the midst of my own personal pity party. Instead of seeing all that I have to be grateful for. I am not perfect, but I was defeated..at least it looked that way to satan. But God used these sweet women on a blog...who live miles away..to minister to me. I don't know how those women have the strength they do...oh yes! I do!! God! They all attest to God keeping them!
I need less of me and more of HIM!! I pray for that kind of strength so that when a storm comes, I can trust HIM completely and not have a pity party.
I just wanted you all to know how thankful I am for each friend that I have. I love you.
To my family, (who might not read this right away)
Oh, how I love you! You are my sunshine. Thank you Lord, for blessing me abundantly!!!!

Lazy Days and Potty Training??

So the last two days I have decided are to be quiet.....ok,ok...hard to imagine with 1 kid.....REALLY hard to imagine with 5!! I just didn't want to have to clean. I hate cleaning! I know it has to be done, but come on...everyday??

Yesterday I just wanted to lay in bed and do nothing...but that didn't happen. I washed about 3 loads of clothes and required the boys to fold them and put them away (10 and 11-mind you-don't be thinking "OMG...call child services") No really, they are old enough for good ole chores!!! I was. Anywoo... and then we atttempted to straighten the dining room-which has become a sorda rest all for anything. Ya know, the stuff you need to find a place for-but can't.

I did do some serious cleaning out a couple weeks ago because the kids new furniture was coming...so I feel I've done my part for now. Atleast that's what I tell myself until I go nuts and scream "why is this house so messy!"

I'm sure you all can relate...the never-ending caous of many kids clothes-one of which is trying to be potty trained...imagine that!

On Another note....said "Potty Training"....I need tips!!! My boys were soooo easy to potty train, but my daughter on the other hand...welp....were trying. She loves to wear the pretty panties and loves the attention she gets when she goes....but forgets in mid play or goes and hides for the #2's in the dining room....you know....the store all place. Heavens to Betsy!!!? I just can't figure the gal out! Then some say that she has regressed because of baby Caitlyn..who knows? I just know I have 2 more weeks before K3 and she has to get it down pat...wush??? who knows if thats gonna happen!