Praise the Lord for Baby Stellan!!

What a praise report!!
http://www.mycharmingkids.net/2008/10/we-have-another-brother.html

Please join me in praying for Mckmama and baby Stellan!! In Jesus' name her delivery will go smoothly and Stellan will join us with flying colors!!

I trust HIM!

So many weeks, I have sat crying...praying...believing...waiting. And you know something? HE always answers. It may not be the way we expected it or how we expected it-but He does.
I didn't cry about finances-it seems God has given this sweet, sorda ackward Peace (it's not weird to HIM-just to me) about that area of my life-It was about my responsibilities as a Mother.
I guess starting young, I know people are looking-judging-waiting for me to screw up. And I do-we all do-but it hurts. Hurts to the core of me that I might do something to mess them up for the rest of their lives or that I have to take authority over later.
I want to be a GREAT Mom-not just a good one and it has seemed to elude me. Everyone sees from the outside. My kids are great kids. They are all unique and beautiful-I love that. but lately, school has been an area we are all certainly struggling with. But when I read God's word I am reassured that I can trust my God that He has my family in His hands and I just need to let go and trust Him!
Haaa...Let go. That's a thought that I do consider-yet I find myself not being able to do that very easily.
Letting go means praying about it and trusting that God will take care of it. Seems simple, doesn't it? However it seems to be harder than I have ever imagined. I can't or shall I say I don't want to think of what it will be like when they actually have to leave the house! Argh....I wish they stayed babies longer!
I am encouraged that letting go to God is so much easier than always screwing it up myself-although I may do that anyway. Yet, He is there to forgive me and encourage me when I get in His word-daily (which I am going to do) and speak His word over my children-What a hope I have in Him!!!

Rest

It is time to rest. Campmeeting is over and regular life begins again and ooh I think of the rest I need and want over the next week. I can't wait! Sleeping in, letting the covers engulf me, tea on the stove......quiet house...ahhhh....the thought of it!
I can't wait! (did I say that, well, I certainly mean it). I also can't wait for baby Reece to arrive! K-I can't wait for you guys to hold that beautiful baby that is on the way (if she's not here yet)!! Let me know what I can do to help-I'm right around the corner!
Anywoo....Monday comes with great anticipation of REST!!!!

.............................Remembering

Today is October 15th, Pregnancy & Infant Loss Rememberance Day. I have never really told anyone, never really voiced what happened except to the closest of people in my life....I have to admit that I lost a baby. I had a miscarriage. I lost a baby that would be 2 this year. So I remember that I would have one more baby to love and cuddle-I never thought I would miss someone that I have never met. I was only 3 months along, but the pain still reverberates. I miss you...

But, I am also going to celbrate that I still have 5 beautiful blessings-Thank you, Lord!

Wordless Wednesday

True Worship......like a child

Getting better..

It's been a while since my last post and things are getting better. It's just been rough getting ready for Campmeeting. It's an all week affair at our church where we have special speakers every night and morning. I haven't been that excited about it, I think because the last two weeks have been a blur.
I finished the nursing mom's room-(ya know I talked about it here at Hectic life-where am i?)It turned out-if I must say so myself-Beautiful!! I am so happy with it. I still have a few little details, but other than that it looks so cute. Mary helped me with the wording and I finished the grass and tree. I will post pics soon, it's just been crazy like I said with Campmeeting.
I am now looking forward to what God has to say through these ministers these next few days. I need guidance from the Lord-I learned that last night. He (Creflo Dollar) reminded me I need to get into the word more and wait to hear His voice, God's voice. I just know that things are changing and I felt like I was at a stand still.
I filled my life with stuff to do, that wasn't really that important or that I really could've said no to. I need more of God. More of His presence. I want to wake up and just be ready to say "Lord, more of YOU, less of me". I haven't been able to neccessarily say that over the last few weeks. And not that I don't have obligations to fill, but I need to start saying "Sorry, I'm spending time with my Lord". I am going to fast tv starting next week and the phone for 2 hours a day. I need this, I need Him.
Finding myself-No-finding Him in me.I am really a worshipper at heart, and I feel I have somehow lost that. Where did it go you may ask? Well, It got lost in the moments of work, kids, groceries, laundry, dishes, broken toilets (that's another story) and the everyday stuff. However...I am getting it back-my joy, my peace, my worship. ALL BACK.
So, If I don't post for a while-just pray for me and be assured I am praying for my blogger friends- I am just taking a break and getting back to what is really important.

By the way check out Lincoln Brewster's (http://www.lincolnbrewster.com/)new cd and his song on it Power of your name! I'm lovin' it.

......................Trust and Deceit.

I am finding that it is hard to trust anyone. You think people are your friends and then they talk behind your back. If you are someone's friend, you share confidences-things you don't repeat.
I know who REAL people are and they love me, despite my faults and weaknesses. And by the way...don't we ALL make mistakes? Whatever happened to REAL friends?

And if you need to talk about other people instead of telling the person to their face-you are not a friend. A friend tells it as it is-in LOVE. And they uplift you when your down. They don't beat you up or give their opinion on what you should do, they give you the WORD of God.

I think I am learning the hard way that if you couldn't trust the person before-then it should be a lesson learned and to move on from. To not trust them again..PERIOD!!!

As for me.....Hard lesson-but certainly learned.

Not me Monday...

It's that time again...I'm joining Mckmama in her "Not me Monday". Go check her out! I love her blog!



I so did not feed my child cookies before dinner because she was screaming so incessantly for dinner...."I'mma hungardary for didner Mumma!!" nope..not me.

I did not wash my bedsheets and then sleep a whole week without them on..

I did not allow my 6 year old to play hookie from school because he just wanted to sleep...

I did not eat an entire Java Chip (large no less) all by myself...nope..

When I think about the Lord..

I think about how great He really is. How BIG He is. How I can rely on Him. I think about what He's done in my life, the junk He delivered me from. No one can tell me He's not real, He's not true....NO...not one! (obviously, they haven't been delivered from anything)
I think about my testimony..
Seventeen, Pregnant, living with my now Husband in a shack of a place...can u picture it...Old garage turned into a make-shift apartment, heating element on wall (don't stick your hand in it-you'll burn yourself!), one small kitchen,bedroom,bathroom,and living room, behind someones house-no less.
Then came Tevin..so beautiful..and God provided-EVERYTHING, changed Everything.
I started going to church more frequently. People gave us clothes, food-it was so awesome to see God move..everytime I believed for something-God sent someone with it. Chris only worked at a door to door alarm system company, so the pay was minimal. Family helped some,however they felt we needed to do it on our own-which I am now grateful for. It taught us to trust God and not people.
A few months after Tevin was born, we moved from place to place and then Chris' dad and my Grandma helped us get our first place-at 18-no less! Tell me that's not a God thing! We then found out I was pregnant with our second child and Chris switched jobs several times-but God provided more money each time.
We stayed in the condo until Preston came along 3 years later and then it was time for bigger and better. We purchased a New home and were able to pick out all the flooring, counters..it was such a blessing. Wow..thinking about what God has done...the events are many.
Then after Preston, we went to Africa and the Lord told me because I believed Him for a girl and I obeyed by going on that missions trip...we had a girl...Jordybug. And now we have 2 beautiful girls!
Just reflecting...I guess. I don't want to forget to be thankful to Jesus who totally changed my life. I get so caught up in life that i forget that He is Big enough!!! Ah...when I think about the Lord....
What is one thing He did for you? Post it here!

Does everything have to be complicated?

I mean really? Does everything I do have to require a 20 minute list of please don't do that-just get it done. Can u please just unload the diswasher without taking a half an hour(finding him eating cookies and grapes instead). Ah..the joys of preteen mothering!
I don't think I signed up for this...did i?? No, Really...It shouldn't be that ridiculous to ask them to pick up their own clothes out of the floor or to put their toys back where they came from-should it?
I just wish they'd realize that I don't just sit on my butt all day- I work hard. I get up early, I get them off to school, I change(d) multiple diapers, wipe snotty noses and love them beyond measure.
However, I am finding that maybe my "thank you's" don't come from them-they come from my God who says that it shouldn't matter what others think (although I must admit I have a hard time with this). I just want an occasional pat on the back or a once in a while "Mom, your the best". Maybe I am not finding this because I do fall short and am not good enough.
I forget things, I yell, I argue, I make many mistakes...I am human. I am not superwoman. I am just a regular woman who decided to have 5 beautiful children who without fail still kiss her goodnight....(that's one thing that doesn't get complicated)

Helppppppp! I'm running out of......

Energy. For sure. It has been quite a crazy few days and I didn't even get a chance to do "Wordless Wednesday" which I was dissapointed about. I am gonna post a few pics just for the fun of it. Hopefully soon I can post about the "Nursing Moms" room!!
But for now, Here are some of the cakes I have made! (Bout time, Huh??)