Rain, Rain..

It's raining here. Not very hard, but it is. I love rain when I'm not in it! It's quiet here almost too quiet.

I'm realizing my babies are getting way too big-I cried yesterday night. I was getting in bed and almost becoming angry. "Why did I put her in so soon? She's still little bitty". What was I thinking?

I sat here yesterday just wanting her to come down from her nap and call for me "Mommy!"-but it didn't happen. I was so sad-still is. I mean it's nice with just Caitlyn being here, but Jordybug is getting to that age where she can have a full conversation and tell you about everything-ya know she's almost 3 and knows EVERYTHING!

My hubby told me I had to make up my mind-in school or not. That's so hard. She wants to be a big girl and I don't want her to grow up. Then he asks "You sound like you want more kids?"....I don't know. We have 5 and people think we're crazy already, especially family. I just love my kids. Every age is fun even when it has it's complications.

I don't know why the rain made me think like this-I just am sad and rain seems to make you sad.

It reminds me of when I was a kid-care free. My mom used to let me go out in the rain in a bathing suit, rain boots and an umbrella (don't know what for-i didn't use it) and just play in the rain-all day. Oh.....to be a kid again! Some days I wish I were-but just without the bad stuff!

Rain....Rain....

Photo By:Tim Heneghan