Selfish....my self discovery

I've been thinking. I've been selfish. I sit and complain about how rough my life is. But is it really? I've been blogging (I have a blogsite) and I look at other peoples blogs and sometimes I just lose it and tear up.
Wow..I am Blessed! Blessed with healthy kids, a home, God's love (my top), family and a church that is awesome. Some of these women have lost babies before they were born, lost babies hours after they are born, had babies and then learned they have cancer (but are believing God for healing) and they can't nurse-I can. And I am sitting here with a new baby and 4 other beautiful children.
I should be thanking God instead of complaining and becoming selfish. It's not about me-it's about HIM using Me for HIS glory. So if I have to deal with the little things-the ones I need to give to Him because He can take care of them because He says "my yolk is easy, my burden is light"...then I have to give it to HIM!
So, I must apologize for my whining and complaining (my venting too). No more excuses. I have been struggling, not because I should, but because I still wanted to take the role of leader..but He should be my leader. MY KING..MY SAVIOR..MY EVERYTHING.
You see, I forgot that. In the midst of my own personal pity party. Instead of seeing all that I have to be grateful for. I am not perfect, but I was defeated..at least it looked that way to satan. But God used these sweet women on a blog...who live miles away..to minister to me. I don't know how those women have the strength they do...oh yes! I do!! God! They all attest to God keeping them!
I need less of me and more of HIM!! I pray for that kind of strength so that when a storm comes, I can trust HIM completely and not have a pity party.
I just wanted you all to know how thankful I am for each friend that I have. I love you.
To my family, (who might not read this right away)
Oh, how I love you! You are my sunshine. Thank you Lord, for blessing me abundantly!!!!