At a loss

 The last weeks have been purging, beautiful, painful and wonderful all at once. I can't explain it. The more I cut off the noise and listen, the sweeter His voice becomes. The more sure of His plan for us that I am. The more I pain at the thought of what is to come-and yet excited for what is to come. Make any sense?
 Oh well. I just know that it's a lot sooner than I thought...the change. Right now, I am so emotional. Selling the house...that's one emotion. We've lived here seven years, babies have been born here, raised here, loved here. There names and their heights are written on doors and that will be erased...(or shall I just steal the door-yea, that's what I will do...:) ). The fears that try to arise in the midst of the peace He alone can give.
  The more I look to the future, I am amazed at what God is doing...how could I doubt the one that placed the stars in their place and the sun in the sky...how? My flesh. My flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing...so the flesh will become obedient. Obedient to His plans, His thoughts toward me. The ones I don't think of myself. Oh, how awesome is He? How holy is He.
 When you get a moment, just sit and ask Him to come near. Ask Him to fill you with His presence....and you'll be at a loss. A loss for words, words to tell how good, wonderful and lovely He really is.....Holy.